brand new ?

i love the concept of new beginnings and starting over ! even though i'm not really starting over , the summer of 2009 is definitely a new chapter of my life. i have been in atl since august 15, 2008 and i am definitely ready for something new. . .something different. in the past couple of weeks , i have been meeting some amazing people and that has kept my spirits up and going for the last half of the semester. shouts out to my new friends ! haha. going home isn't exactly different , but it's a change from atl trap music , the same people , and the same parties. i have bigger and more adventurous dreams. i have lived inside of a box my whole entire life and this semester , i smashed that shxt. lol. i used to wonder 'is anything i'm doing brand new ?' now i realize that 'everything i'm doing's brand new' [exclusive remix from Drake himself haha] I plan to murder the east coast this summer from NY to Miami. catch me if you can ;)

Soooo FaR GoNe . . .

/> So these two guys , heartbreak Drizzy Drake & Trey Songz, are probably my favorite male artists at the moment - especially Drake. Last night I experienced a memorable concert to say the least . . . front row and everything. lol. i even got pointed at twice and that smile . . . anywayssss , it was great. definitely worth the money i spent for it. He's a great performer for his first tour. It was short but sweet since a lot of his songs featured other people blah blah blah. but this mutlitalented dude has my vote forever and everrrr. actor. rapper. singer. *two thumbs up*

see you in my knightmares.

As I listen to Kanye's 808s and Heartbreak , it just gives me a sense of relief. the lyrics have so much passion behind them to a somewhat soft rock, techno soundtrack. today, i hear my sentiments in this album. only because on days like these when i feel confused and savage , the words are already expressed for me in the most beautiful form that anything can be expressed - through music. but as much as i quote the ratchet lyrics and replay the songs louder and louder , i could probably never really be that way. but then again lately. . . things have been changing. too bad it's too late =\

my favorite necklace.

I wear love everyday like it's the latest fashion.

It hangs around my neck like a ball and chain

weighing me down to the most minimal options ,

the most impossible situations , the lamest emotions ,

the secret pain.

but when i wear it , i feel a sense of pride and individuality

- a sense of welcoming compassion for everyone to see.

it's something that i wear to remind me of me.

something so small but special , so that the world will remember me

not as the girl from "bmore" with the long black hair

or the girl that used to mess with [insert your name here] haha.

but as the girl who was not afraid to parade love everyday

fearless of her feelings , fearless of the truth.

the one to always say what's real . . .

a walking dichotomy called tough love

the girl who is always willing to give her heart away

with a baby pink ribbon and a vibrant red heart.

black girl lost .

the broken pieces of the puzzle , s c a t t e r e d .
as deceitful tales travel from her tongue to the ears of the ones she loves.
and her eyes leak in desperation for someone to end it all.
money falls at her feet like raindrops and she throws it all away
because her conscience outweighs her problems and his problems and their problems.
chasing a world of darkness on an endless road to nowhere.
seemingly heartless.
despite the constant lust for life that overwhelms her body daily.
the short breaths after the long, harsh blows to her chest,
the bandages that strap her ribs in place,
the makeup to disguise the bruises,
the smiles to defer attention,
the frowns that scream for help.
making the decision to infer incisions along her wrists.
to ironically ease the pain or at least to deflect from the eternal internal pain.
she cushions her falls down flights of steps
with her dedication to the lives of others, more than her own
b r o k e n .

Epiphany- Chrisette Michele

Ms. Michele's new album hits stores Tuesday, May 5th and for the TRUE R&B/music lovers , this is something that you would definitely appreciate. I love her originality and her vocal tone (imma geek haha). I feel like the whole entire cd is about me. lol. All I can say is wow.

smoking gun.

so the dude back home kept asking me have i heard this song by Jadakiss. I finally downloaded it and it is soooo positive. we need more songs like this.

Smoking Gun feat. Jazmine Sullivan - Jadakiss