my anthem :)

I LOVE THIS SONG AND THIS VIDEO WITH ALL OF MY HEART. her voice is amazing. the message is amazing. she says what we are all thinking.


Adele - Chasing Pavements - Watch a funny movie here

footprints.

everyday of our lives, we interact with people in some way or another. we may wave in passing, nod in acknowledgement or even give somebody a hug who we haven't seen in a while. either way, people are walking in and out of our lives. we are constantly on the go. we have a lot of places we need to be and a lot of times we don't have time to acknowledge every little encounter.

today i made the statement that people walk in and out of our lives everyday; why not let them ?

before i came to college, i used to think that people would mature and change for the better because it was the right thing to do. i don't know why i believed that stupid shxt. i consider myself to be a realist and whatever is in front of me, is what i go with. if you want to be a friend, be a true friend. but don't maneuver your way in and out of people's lives only for your personal benefit. that would make you a bxtch.

associates come and go. friends leave footprints. if somebody goes missing from your life for a period of time and your life continues without any thought about that person, why would you care that they are gone ? 9/10 they don't that they're absent from your life. if somebody betrays you in such a way that hurts your feelings, why would you be upset ? that's one less liar in the midst. we are constantly searching for the truth but the truth hurts. and often when we find it, we refuse to let it enhance our knowledge. instead we hide from it. the truth is that we can't always look the other way and keep it moving. we can't always kick niggas to the curb. and we can't always hold back our tears. but the reality of the situation is that all 200 people that you know , can NOT be your friends. only about 10 of them will really matter and in most cases the number is much smaller than that.

i look at it like this, the people that are in your life, are there for a reason -- either to teach you a lesson or be a blessing. lessons are learned and we move on. blessings are received and appreciated. don't linger on lessons because then that means you didn't get the memo the first time you saw shade in your "friend". but do appreciate the blessings in your life and let them know everyday :) and be a blessing to others as well.

robots.

we are all human but how come we can't accomplish basic human interactions ? genuine hugs are uncommon. we lack the energy or desire to participate in genuine conversation with one another -- especially the opposite sex. we view crying as a weakness. we oppress our feelings. we dispel our thoughts. we're engulfed in work and school. we are trained to be self sufficient. money has become our main motive for success. happiness is searched for but often equated with what we want instead of what we have. we spend hours with technology and we barely pay attention to the world around us.

we are desensitized to violence and death -- or at least we pretend to be. being afraid is seen as a reflection of inadequacy. people like people for what they have, not who they are. true friends are limited and our social lives are based on drugs, alcohol and parties. we learn about other people through their tweets and judge them by their facebook pictures. we probably have never held a conversation with any of the people we "know" a day in our lives.

our lives have become mechanic. at any time, we are susceptible to crash. and it's not that we want to be robotic, but we have been programmed to think that emotion is negative. we are afraid that carrying out human emotion will destroy our system. we fear that emotion will stop our heart, soften our backbone and peel layers from our skin. emotion has become acidic to us. why do we view our feelings as pathogens ? why do we believed that whatever our mind can not necessarily control is trying to attack us ? why are we attacking ourselves ?

suffocation.

i tip toe around your thoughts because i'm afraid that you'll open the door
only to slam it in my face
i whisper to circumvent your reactions --
that slip through your lips so unbecomingly
and push me back 200 feet away from you . . .
that make me just walk away
so that i can ignore your short-comings and bury my insecurities
and disguise unrealistic dreams as hopeless possibilities
i suffocate . . . believing that you will help me breathe
instead you suck my last breath
and i choke on frustration that infiltrates my airways
it can easily stop my heartbeat.

i watch the hour hand over and over again
i watch the numbers on the calendar come and go
and you still remain the same
as my lipstick color brightens and make-up paints my face
and my eyes turn red and gaze at the same spot in admiration
my heart softens, my jaws clinch, i stop breathing.

h e a r t b r e a k.

it's not a game =/

in addition to breast cancer awareness month, it's domestic violence awareness month as well. most people say it could never happen to them, but only GOD knows what will happen to you. we criticize domestic violence vicitms for not getting out of the situation but when your life is on the line, there is no telling what you will do.

when somebody is holding a gun to your head, they are controlling your life at the end of that barrel. you could be wiped off of the earth in a second or live to see your child graduate from kindergarten. it's not as clear cut as most people would think. and as much as you may hate the person holding that gun to your head, you can't just walk away. why ? because you're afraid. not because you love him. not because of the kids. simply because you fear for your life. and as crazy as it may sound, if you had to choose between being smacked and being shot, what would you choose ? at that moment, what would you do ?

now in no way am i saying that domestic abuse is okay or that victims should stay because they're scared. i'm just laying out the situation for those who are blind or ignorant. people say "leave the first time that he hits you". but before you judge, stop and think that it could have been you.

domestic violence is serious. it's not funny. it's not a game. we shouldn't criticize the victims.

fall.

i see you slowly changing
and i watch you flicker like a candle in the dark
i inhale one more time.

you've soaked up all of the warmth that I have given you
and now you're leaving me
gently falling
being carried away with the wind

i chase you because i am foolish
because i want you to stay
because i am selfish

now i'm cold
and you're nothing but a bittersweet memory
molded into the earth and forever in my heart

P.U.S.H.

midterms are this week and i plan on spending every minute working on this 4.0. i speak greatness into existence because i believe in GOD and i believe in P.U.S.H. pray until something happens. good luck!