the golden coast.

as 'OMG' and classic snoop dogg blasted through the speakers of a black BMW , a couple of rising juniors from spelman college embarked on a journey. for some , it was a reconnection and reassurance of their love for a city. for others , it was an experience full of firsts -- first visit to the west coast , first plane ride , etc. cruising through beverly hills , hollywood , santa monica , and pasadena seemed like a surreal dream. the palm trees through which the mountains peered were perfectly aligned with one another. awakened by blue skies and sunshine , excitement and beauty. reunited from miami , baltimore , atlanta in CALIFORNIA :)

btw , i'm on a world tour to see all that i can see. currently posted in DC for the summer until my next adventure :)

just a friend.

everybody dreams of the day that they will meet their soul mate and when they think they've met them , they casually flirt , playfully laugh and wrestle , put on a little extra eye shadow or just a tad bit more cologne. you're watching your favorite comedy and you happen to reach for the popcorn at the same time as they do and you gaze deeply into their eyes and they say ...


"you're such a good friend"


WTF ? lol. after you put so much effort into trying to make that person see how much you admire them and they hit you with the you're such a good friend or you're like my brother/sister line , it's painful. so after admitting to having a crush on someone and completely putting yourself out on a limb for that person , can you fulfill that position of just a friend ? could you listen to all of their stories about their significant other , meet up with them when they need advice , lend them a helping hand in certain situations , be able to be alone with them without being awkward or celebrate holidays and birthdays without feeling emotionally or physically attracted to that person ?

a lot of people would much rather sever all ties between themselves and that individual than endure every gruesome minute of that person's life via pictures and social networking sites -- knowing that that will never be them. people disappear because they know that they will never be "the one". it's difficult to experience but it doesn't have to be all or nothing. i believe that while people do need time to heal , they should make an effort to continue to have a friendship with that person if indeed they do consider them to be their friend. there's somebody for everybody and sometimes the somebody that you want is not the somebody for you. once you can accept that and be at peace with the fact that your crush does not possess the same feelings for you as you do for them , you can begin to MOVE ON. you may or may not build a friendship with that person. it may or may not work ... but it doesn't hurt to try :)

just breathe.

today seemed like the worse.

i had a test that i didn't fully study for, a thesis paper due for an unsure idea and back to back classes and meetings. 4 to 5 hours of sleep. decisions slapping me in the face left and right. questions about the future. it all came crashing down on me at one moment. i call it college.

i called mom and she lifted my spirits being supportive and offering advice as usual.

then i called stan the man, who is always comforting and offering advice based on how intimately he knows me. and then my bro marvin got on the phone being the icing on the cake. he told me "not to quit and keep competing with these bxtches and stay on my shxt." lmao.

i love my family and friends from back home. they always know just what to say to make me smile. just to know that there are so many people rooting for me, makes me breathe easier.