i love college.

i wish i could put up every moment captured by taara of this school year. each and every one of these people have made my freshman year unforgettable. *additions may be added between now and next week*

She's the effin best !

she stands alone in the center of it all.
no one is like her , so none like her.
because crack runs through her purple veins like antibiotics
and her children are untamed just like the life she lives.
her life is full of twists and turns, ups and downs,
her path is far from smooth.
they're constantly using blush and white eyeliner to soften her harsh, ugly face.
but her eyes glow bright green with greed and addiction.
and her bold, black eyeshadow strips the soft white eyeliner.
9mm pointing at her from every direction
strays invade her house like poison.
her children throw dirt in her own backyard; a quest for a treasure that they'll never posess.
she's feisty; so when she fights she's always the winner
because she's at the center--the heart of it all
that bursts and bleeds with undeniable cries for help !
while the doctors watch impatiently with scapel in hand
but she'll never die because her heart beats to a never ending tune of sirens and gunshots, dirtbikes and buses, screaming and laughing.
BALTIMORE.

since when is it O.K. ?

Yes, it's Jay Z. They say he was playing around backstage with a friend in South Africa but regardless, this is what makes other young men think it's okay to beat on women. During the Chris Brown and Rihanna incident, Jay Z and Kanye West were all over tv dogging Chris and saying how domestic violence isn't okay blah blah blah. but both of them have been caught (especially Kanye) mushing, pushing, slapping, and verbally abusing their female "fans".

I hate how money excuses you from being persecuted about acting like an asshole. Everybody writes the actions of money moguls off as whatever they say they are without even considering that the person could be lying. Domestic violence is a serious issue. The battery of women is not a joke. Would Jay Z like it if some man did that to Beyonce and said he was just playing ? would Kanye appreciate some man yelling and cursing at his mother ? no , i doubt it. the world is full of hypocrites--even our role models.

mission accomplished :)

I'm so terrible but I love it. This is what college is about. Few know what I am talking about, but I just feel the need to share my sheer excitement, even if no one understands. haha.

I'm getting mad shade for doing me, but at least I'm cool [puts on sunglasses here]. corny huh ? lmao.

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But on a serious note, "I am not a dog catcher. If you expect for me to chase you, that's fine. But don't get mad when I adopt a pure bred."

the grass is never greener . . .

summer love.
it's hot outside and i have been begging for heat and sunshine for the longest but now that it's here, something has come over me. i have been experiencing all of these feelings and internal conflicts this last half of the semester and last night, they subsided. the desire to "release your contract", the desire to walk away, the desire to cry, the desire to rebel, the desire to criticize . . . gone with the rain and wind. yesterday, i felt the sun graze my legs for the first time in a long time and for the first time in a long time, i. felt. you.

because when i think of summer, when i taste summer, when i feel summer . . . i think of you, i taste you (haha), and i feel you. 3 out of the 4 past summers, i have spent with you. heat stroke stroll down wildwood parkway. awkward bus rides (we were so young :) the harbor. celebrating our summer birthdays. surprise boat rides. countless amusement parks. butterflies of our first time and butterflies on roller coasters. obnoxious car rides. ritas. bi-monthly visits to outback (lol). his and her cargo shorts. greasy fast food. fast fights. tattoos. love.

i am finally realizing that the grass is NEVER greener on the other side; it's just shadier.

oh , how i love Beyonce

last night as i was reading facebook statuses, i saw that a girl from maryland had already gotten her tickets to see Beyonce. now, the last time i checked she was touring in Europe so i was confused. i went to her website and found out that the I Am...Sasha Fierce North American tour will be initiated this June!!! 6 days before my day of birth aka June 24, B will be in DC at the Verizon Center! Tickets go on sale on Saturday at ticketmaster and the first 2000 people will only be charged $20 per ticket! wtf ?! my mom will be on ticketmaster.com tomorrow morning at 9...waiting until 10 so that we will be in the building. fa sho. I'm beyond excited!!

***public service announcement***

***IF YOU WERE NOTHING THEN, YOU ARE NOTHING NOW***

I find myself constantly having this conversation with my friends because we're soooo sick of it. I'm so sick of people living their lives in the shadows of others and then using college as a chance to shine. you have a chance to start over. yes. we all have taken advantage of that. but , starting over does not mean re-creating you. you are who you are regardless of what anyone else thinks. at the end of the day, you have to look in the mirror and love yourself. no one else. and right now, this whole guy/girl thing may seem like a big deal. but it's not. right now, nothing is a big deal. we are rising sophomores and the drum of life beats whether you prove yourself or not. when you go to college, you are expected to change. but some people need to evaluate the changes they are making. are they positive ? do they reflect the kind of person that you really want to be ? if all of these people disappeared tomorrow , would you look at yourself the same way ? if the answer to any of these questions is no , then you need to take a time out this summer to reflect on your social being. let's grow up, shall we ?