you ask me how i still smile ?

. . . as you nibble on my ear and intense chills run up my spine without remorse.

. . . as you stare at me with that silly smirk on your face and amazement in your eyes -- those beautiful brown eyes that make my whole body melt like cotton candy; those beautiful brown eyes that i refuse to look into because i know i will blush.

so i smile. which is easier than saying, "i've been through so much. fxck the world."

. . . which is easier than saying "i like you a lot".

i will never forget that moment. the definition of real.